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	TSR : Web boards : M/s D/s O&P : "Tips for mental disorders with the lifestyle" 1 2 Tips for mental disorders with the lifestyle (17) This post is on the M/s D/s O&P web board. 12 Jan 12, 3:50 AM slave_torianna US(GA), 15 mths I dont do well talking about my 'mental issues' publicly so I apologize if my post may seem scattered. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and borderline personality disorder. Medication no longer helped while I was with my ex hisband bc of how bad things were so I stopping taking the meds and decided to leave it in God's hands. I know, I was young and dumb. Ive done well for a while due to Daddy's patience and understanding. I am mental fragile and most of the time feel like I am on the verge of 'losing it'. I can carry on as normal until 1 little thing changes then Im in panic mode. Again Daddy has been the source of most of my stability but He cant do everything. Every time I get the courage to go see another doctor to get back on meds, I back down. I didnt like the person I was then when I was put in a mental ward and diagnosed and I dont wan to feel like the same girl. Daddy and I have noticed more issues with me lately...the most recent is feeling air on my teeth. Sounds weird I know. It makes me sick, makes me gag, makes me wish I didnt have to take another breath. Rips in seats, strings on towels, random textures of food (we could sit here all night with my list) but they all cause me to 'freak out'. Im scared to look through peep holes bc I know someone is waiting there so shove an ice pick through my eye and hell I will walk 10 miles out of my way before I walk passed a white panel van bc I know someone will snatch me up...tornado sirens - I start saying my final prayers. Im glad you started this tread...writing everything out makes me see I may need to get help still. It seems you have taken the right steps with being open and talking and seeking treament as well. I wish you nothing but the best and good luck slave torianna i dont walk in front or beside Daddy, i walk a step behind in my place, but close enough to grab His shirt tail if i ever get scared. i'm thankful to my Master that never leaves me behind. Thank you for loving someone like me Daddy. 12 Jan 12, 6:31 AM Prolixitys_Saphira US, 16 mths Tori -- I have a bad storm phobia, too and I've never been comfortable living in a place without a basement. I was sure some storm would come along and sweep the house away with all of us in it. I was so thankful I was able to find a reasonably priced place with a basement this time around! Other than that, I have trouble dealing with the unexpected, get anxious when I'm outside of my routines, have extremely ramped-up senses (can't live in an apartment anymore because if any other residents makes too much noise or cigarette smoke can be smelled in my living space, it bothers me), hate being touched by anyone other than Prolixity and the kids, am a social moron in person (less online and not really in my job--people come to me to get their problems solved, not to socialize), have serious meltdowns when I go into overload emotionally, socially or because of too much sensory input, have to remember to make eye contact and small talk and be tactful with that small talk, so on and so forth. I'm such great slave material, aren't I? *laughs* Owned, loved and protected by Prolixity. 12 Jan 12, 7:07 AM 822-492-813 US(KY), 17 mths @411 One of the main concers of my doctor was my developing agoraphobia. My panic attacks coupled with the fact that I was laid off and had no place I 'had to be'. As a young person I would not stay home for more than a few hours. Now home = safe and I will stay put for weeks without a second tought. Interesting discussion. Peace 822-492-813 Edited 12 Jan 12, 7:10 AM by 822-492-813 12 Jan 12, 8:16 AM 491-315-154 US(CA), 2 yrs slave_emma wrote: I think you and your Master need to talk about what sort of expectations your Master has of you during your time of recovery. If you expect too much of yourself, you are setting yourself up for failure and that can make your symptoms worse. If the two of you set small goals for housework and cooking, as the medication works into your system then you can see how you are making progress. Instead of aiming for a spotless house, aim for something smaller like doing a load of laundry but not having to folding it. Breaking up your chores into small steps, may also help. slave emma I was diagnosed with pulmonary hypertension in July. Without proper treatment and rest, this can be a death sentence. I find that I need to break up what I do each day. I am use to having a spotless house, so this has been difficult. This is nice words of wisdom for this slave. 12 Jan 12, 3:46 PM SeanT70 9 yrs Great posts by naughty_slave and slave_emma as always. It might surprise some people here to find that sometimes the odd (peculiar even) M-type has suffered from long-term anxiety based issues. I'd venture to say if my memory serves me correctly, this is well documented in my posting history. Not that I'm seeing anyone now, and haven't done for a long time, nor I will in I future, but I 'had' previously been an outpatient for some 17 years, seeing a psych, counsellor and CPN, and on countless meds. All pretty useless as it goes. Mainly because I couldn't deal with the crux of the matter. Kink aware is hard to find here for one thing. Getting it understood is another. I have a very strange coping mechanism my own GP doesn't understand because he likes to think he can push me back on some nice mood altering pills. I can get myself back in a froth thanks, not least with the side effects of my other meds etc. SlaveTori4Daddy wrote: Daddy and I have noticed more issues with me lately...the most recent is feeling air on my teeth. Sounds weird I know. It makes me sick, makes me gag, makes me wish I didnt have to take another breath. Rips in seats, strings on towels, random textures of food (we could sit here all night with my list) but they all cause me to 'freak out'. Nothing unusual in those symptoms at all; I Know exactly what you mean . Anyone wants a natter privately about any of these issues, of course feel free to drop me a memo anytime. Have a good day, Sean. 12 Jan 12, 10:20 PM ChaosxSeduction US(CA), 2 yrs Y! True2life wrote: Obviously you are under the care of a licensed psychiatrist, if they are prescribing, and perhaps have access to a psychologist as well. Tell them of your dynamic, trust me, they have heard it all if they're worth a damn. Make sure they are aware of your lifestyle and they can help you integrate your treatment and lifestyle. Looking for mental health advice in any forum is incredibly risky. Also, your Dom/Master is not likely qualified to make decisions when it comes to your mental health. I don't mean in general like average physical or mental well being, but as regards real, diagnosable, mental health issues. My previous relationship was with a wonderful woman who is a psychologist with over 30 years serving the chronically mentally ill community and in our 15 years together I became accutely aware of the need for complete and total honesty in treatment, and sticking with the therapy and medications involved in that treatment. Be completely honest with your practitioner so they do not mistake symptoms or make assumptions based on observation of behaviors and statements. They will know what your involvement with the lifestyle means in how you relate to people. Actually I was looking for ideas on how other people dealt with it. I have a kid so I'm kind of freaked out about telling my psychiatrist about it. I don't want them to think that I am making a unsafe environment for my child. Which is silly. How many of us have children? We don't do most of the things that we do in front of them. Why should we be considered unsafe to raise a child because of our lifestyle choices? It's frustrating. Thanks for the advice though. I will consider it. 13 Jan 12, 12:13 AM slave_emma US(OK), 6 yrs Y! ChaosxSeduction wrote: Actually I was looking for ideas on how other people dealt with it. I have a kid so I'm kind of freaked out about telling my psychiatrist about it. I don't want them to think that I am making a unsafe environment for my child. Which is silly. How many of us have children? We don't do most of the things that we do in front of them. Why should we be considered unsafe to raise a child because of our lifestyle choices? It's frustrating. Thanks for the advice though. I will consider it. My Master has children. His children and our lifestyle choice has never been an issue whenever we have gone to counseling. We do not push our lifestyle choices on to his children and they certainly don't know what goes on in the bedroom. We have talked about his children when we have gone to counseling because of issues we were having with the child. Our lifestyle choices have never been seen as a problem. My Master is the head of household and we like kinky sex when there are no children in the house. I do think how an M/s relationship is described is important. People who do not understand the lifestyle may think the slave isn't treated with respect or she is running around naked and on a leash in front of the kids. When in reality nothing could be further from the truth. For simplicity purposes, I tend to explain my relationship as having my Master as the head of household. He has the final decision in all things, but we talk about those choices. I don't make any qualms about my preference for kinky sex, but I make it clear there are no children in the home when that is going on. Personally, I would be more concerned about the people who post links to pictures and videos of their kids on adult sites getting their children taken away. It is a little concerning to me, when you can go to someone's blog and see pictures of their children from the same set of pornographic pictures the parent posted on the adult site. Something like that would probably be enough to get the attention of child protective services. Best wishes, slave emma Master Howard's little girl