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	TSR : Web boards : M/s D/s O&P : "Life without a collar" 1 2 Life without a collar (17) This post is on the M/s D/s O&P web board. Mon 9 Jan 12, 3:19 AM ZombiePuppet US(OH), 14 mths Y! So after four years of being owned my owner has decided he no longer wants me as a slave. I completely understand why he does not wish to be my master anymore. I was simply to difficult for him. I have never been uncollared not since my very first boyfriend. I have only had two owners but it was a quick easy transition from owner one to owner two. I feel empty and worthless when I am not a slave. I just dont know what to do with myself. I am working on the issues that caused me to lose him. I just feel lost and alone so I just wanted to vent. Thank you Edited Mon 9 Jan 12, 3:20 AM by ZombiePuppet 9 Jan 12, 3:46 AM 378-774-494 8 mths hun i know the feeling all to well after being with my last master for so long i just dont know what do with my self. and it just seems to be a whole lot of things the onlying i can say is keep working to being the best and stay bisy that about the only advice i can give you. 9 Jan 12, 3:53 AM ZombiePuppet US(OH), 14 mths Y! 378-774-494 wrote: hun i know the feeling all to well after being with my last master for so long i just dont know what do with my self. and it just seems to be a whole lot of things the onlying i can say is keep working to being the best and stay bisy that about the only advice i can give you. You are very sweet. Thank you. I am trying to keep busy as possible. 9 Jan 12, 4:21 AM 333-528-841 CA, 3 yrs slave_needs_trained wrote: Life without a collar So after four years of being owned my owner has decided he no longer wants me as a slave. I completely understand why he does not wish to be my master anymore. I was simply to difficult for him. I have never been uncollared not since my very first boyfriend. I have only had two owners but it was a quick easy transition from owner one to owner two. I feel empty and worthless when I am not a slave. I just dont know what to do with myself. I am working on the issues that caused me to lose him. I just feel lost and alone so I just wanted to vent. Thank you I am sorry to hear about your release. It is good that you are working on the issues that lead up to this happening but please do not think of yourself as worthless. You had 4 years and it does take 2 to make a relationship regardless of the lifestyle. Did any of this have to do with your move? Sometimes, certain things are meant to be, maybe this is one of them. I am glad you are keeping busy, it may not be the time to think yet. All the best to you, take care and be good to yourself. 333-528-841 Life shouldn't be measured by the breaths you take; but by the moments that take your breath away - unknown 9 Jan 12, 5:18 AM slave_emma US(OK), 6 yrs Y! I'm sorry things didn't work out with your Master. I hope this break up wasn't over the potential move back to the states. I do think you should give yourself some time, however long it takes to work through the issues that caused the relationship to fail. I know for me when I came out of my first failed M/s relationship taking the time to reflect on the relationship. It allowed me to really develop what I was looking for and what I was not looking in my next relationship. Best wishes, slave emma Master Howard's little girl 9 Jan 12, 6:17 AM naughtyslave US, 2 yrs you are so young...you have your whole life ahead of you to serve. When one is released it is a very difficult time to say the least..but its all about the journey...fate will take you where you are suppose to be.Each relationship will show you even more about yourself and the times you are alone will teach you about the strengths that you have.. wishing you peace, Take care, His naughtyslave 9 Jan 12, 12:38 PM SL_precious CA, 3 yrs naughtyslave wrote: you are so young...you have your whole life ahead of you to serve. When one is released it is a very difficult time to say the least..but its all about the journey...fate will take you where you are suppose to be.Each relationship will show you even more about yourself and the times you are alone will teach you about the strengths that you have.. wishing you peace, Naughty has just said everything I was going to say Every relationship in our life is a stepping stone leading you to where you are meant to be. Cherish the good in it and learn from the bad. Take care, SL's_precious "Amazing what happens when we let go, surrender all and embrace the painful changes that are necessary to bring wholeness, and a brighter tomorrow." Suzanne Sondberg 9 Jan 12, 12:49 PM ZombiePuppet US(OH), 14 mths Y! Thank you all so very much. I am sure i will be ok. When he told me at first he said " i love you just not as a slave" and then I cried and asked if he ever would again. He simply said maybe .not any aingle other word. We still live together and he has not mentioned it since andneither have I. Im not sure exactly if I should approach him or wait for him to approach me. I do have to admit being 23 and alread through two masters is pretty embarassing. Lol im sure things will get better one way or another. Either he will own me or he wont. I cant and do not want to force him to own me. I want a Master who wants me . All I can do is cross my fingers and hope. Again, thank you all for being so awesome and beautiful and understanding. SL_precious wrote: naughtyslave wrote: you are so young...you have your whole life ahead of you to serve. When one is released it is a very difficult time to say the least..but its all about the journey...fate will take you where you are suppose to be.Each relationship will show you even more about yourself and the times you are alone will teach you about the strengths that you have.. wishing you peace, Naughty has just said everything I was going to say Every relationship in our life is a stepping stone leading you to where you are meant to be. Cherish the good in it and learn from the bad. Take care, SL's_precious 9 Jan 12, 4:41 PM Dagobert US(WA), 21 mths slave_needs_trained wrote: Thank you all so very much. I am sure i will be ok. When he told me at first he said " i love you just not as a slave" and then I cried and asked if he ever would again. He simply said maybe .not any aingle other word. We still live together and he has not mentioned it since andneither have I. Im not sure exactly if I should approach him or wait for him to approach me. I do have to admit being 23 and alread through two masters is pretty embarassing. Lol im sure things will get better one way or another. Either he will own me or he wont. I cant and do not want to force him to own me. I want a Master who wants me . All I can do is cross my fingers and hope. Again, thank you all for being so awesome and beautiful and understanding. I don't think that is terribly uncommon. As I have mentioned on TSR ad infinitum, Adela and I have morphed into something that is not quite M/s or O/p but certainly not fitting any definition of "normal." I think it is perfectly okay to be some undefined thing, so long as it makes both of you happy. Good luck! 9 Jan 12, 5:06 PM ZombiePuppet US(OH), 14 mths Y! Dagobert wrote: slave_needs_trained wrote: Thank you all so very much. I am sure i will be ok. When he told me at first he said " i love you just not as a slave" and then I cried and asked if he ever would again. He simply said maybe .not any aingle other word. We still live together and he has not mentioned it since andneither have I. Im not sure exactly if I should approach him or wait for him to approach me. I do have to admit being 23 and alread through two masters is pretty embarassing. Lol im sure things will get better one way or another. Either he will own me or he wont. I cant and do not want to force him to own me. I want a Master who wants me . All I can do is cross my fingers and hope. Again, thank you all for being so awesome and beautiful and understanding. I don't think that is terribly uncommon. As I have mentioned on TSR ad infinitum, Adela and I have morphed into something that is not quite M/s or O/p but certainly not fitting any definition of "normal." I think it is perfectly okay to be some undefined thing, so long as it makes both of you happy. Good luck! So sorry for all of My typos. Chubby fingers plus iphone really is not a good combo. I think I am just going to sit back and take it all in for awhile. Get to know some people and see where things go. He has spent the weekend sending me insane mixed messages. Thanks for the advice it is nice to know that other people seem to fall into the not ms not vanilla category. 9 Jan 12, 9:00 PM orionsheart 4 mths I would frankly be surprised if a genuine(and newly-released) slave did not have those feelings of empty despair and anxiety when she was released by her master. In that elusive and mythical perfect world, the slave/sub should be conditioned to look to her master/dom for focus/direction and the energy to follow his command. So breaking up and going your own separate ways "cold turkey"is so much more difficult than in the vanilla world, and perhaps some kind of transitional step might be possible. We humans are truly creatures of habit and after getting used to multiple years of frequent "many times daily contact" via email/phone/or skin-to-skin contact , its hard for both sides to just cease and desist altogether. That said, I really do sympathize with your plight and angst and wish you all the best in finding a new guiding light. L Next page