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	TSR : Web boards : M/s D/s O&P : "Owned no longer" 1 2 3 4 5 6 Owned no longer (49) This post is on the M/s D/s O&P web board. Sat 31 Dec 11, 3:23 PM 998-978-777 US(TN), 23 mths Y! I lost my Master on the very day he was meant to retrieve me, and the sadness I feel is oppressive. Im not asking for sympathy or for special treatment only for advice on how to get past this darkness that seems suffocating and endless. I have lost my guiding light forever. RIP Sol, I am sorry I let you down 31 Dec 11, 3:58 PM 766-003-205 US(CA), 11 mths Y! 998-978-777 wrote: Owned no longer I lost my Master on the very day he was meant to retrieve me, and the sadness I feel is oppressive. Im not asking for sympathy or for special treatment only for advice on how to get past this darkness that seems suffocating and endless. i am sorry on what should have been the happiest day is now the saddest. Putting your mind to the future will help. i am assuming it isn't via death, but something came up for Him that caused the dynamic have to be aborted. If something went wrong that you have control of and it WAS wrong, then you can work on resolving that. If something went wrong that was out of your control, then working on letting go of it and perhaps honing "red flag skills" would be helpful. Basically doing something proactive and positive to avoid a repeat if possible tends to help empower and heal. The advice would really be different based on what happened, so it is difficult to be precise or risk being offensive. i know i worded that weirdly, but i just got up with reduced sleep. i think the sudden shift of moods and losing expectations and happy anticipation is almost worse than the event sometimes, though in perspective not really. Edited 31 Dec 11, 4:04 PM by 766-003-205 31 Dec 11, 4:30 PM 998-978-777 US(TN), 23 mths Y! He killed himself, thanks to pressure from his folks...and their misunderstanding of the lifestyle. Master Sol's beast. He is my guiding light, the inspiration for my breaths and all the moments that take my breath away. I love you my Master, may your beast never leave your side! 31 Dec 11, 4:46 PM pj2216 US(NM), 3 yrs sorry for your lose. I lost a relative to a murderer a while back, it was very difficult to deal with. As hard as it is the best thing to do is continue living. I would suggest finding a kink aware counselor and talking to them. Also talk to your friends, you may never be the same but communication and talking to people is the best way to handle the pain of your lose. 31 Dec 11, 5:27 PM 998-978-777 US(TN), 23 mths Y! not interested but thanks for the offer I have lost my guiding light, never to be found again. Darkenss and oppression seem to envelope me. 31 Dec 11, 5:55 PM Lord_Uther UK, 6 yrs I am truly sorry for your loss. I lost one of my best friends to suicide a few years ago and it's different to any other loss. The anger and betrayel I felt was so intense, and I don't think you ever get over it. To this day we have no idea why he chose to end it, but whatever it was we could've faced together. I'm on my phone so can't give as detailed response as I'd like but my thought's are with you. XxX My name is Lord Uther, king of kings: Look on my works, ye Mighty, and despair! 31 Dec 11, 6:01 PM 998-978-777 US(TN), 23 mths Y! Lord_Uther wrote: I am truly sorry for your loss. I lost one of my best friends to suicide a few years ago and it's different to any other loss. The anger and betrayel I felt was so intense, and I don't think you ever get over it. To this day we have no idea why he chose to end it, but whatever it was we could've faced together. I'm on my phone so can't give as detailed response as I'd like but my thought's are with you. XxX Thank you Master, I appreciate your words of encouragement. I have lost my guiding light, never to be found again. Darkenss and oppression seem to envelope me. 31 Dec 11, 6:39 PM slave_torianna US(GA), 15 mths My friend and brother at year killed himself some years ago. My heart was torn out, like 'how could he have done this too me?'. I handle things in the wrong way. I was selfiah, just selfish. Its important to grieve and let out all of your emtions...scream, cuss, cry, write it out...whatever its takes, just make sure it isnt held in. I wish I the best, my thoughts and prayers are with you... slave torianna i dont walk in front or beside Daddy, i walk a step behind in my place, but close enough to grab His shirt tail if i ever get scared. i'm thankful to my Master that never leaves me behind. Thank you for loving someone like me Daddy. 31 Dec 11, 7:39 PM 766-003-205 US(CA), 11 mths Y! 998-978-777 wrote: He killed himself, thanks to pressure from his folks...and their misunderstanding of the lifestyle. OMG i am SOOOOO sorry that happened to Him and to you. That is so sad it is beyond words. Suicide is something that is extremely difficult to move past. Have you thought of connecting with grief counselors? A specialized counselor would be helpful as suicide is unique in it's reactions. God, i can't tell you how sorry i am and the pain you must feel from all of that. Hospice has good counselors and if they don't have the resources to help you themselves they can give an excellent referral. Also the National Coalition for Sexual Freedom has a kink friendly professionals list. They probably can help too. One day at a time, one foot before the other. Know you are not responsible. 31 Dec 11, 7:48 PM 333-528-841 CA, 3 yrs alienmaster1 wrote: i am willing to be your master slave contact me Really?? WTF!!! The OP is seeking advise not solicitation from a bottom dweller!! >**walks away muttering, wondering where these people come from <** 333-528-841 Life shouldn't be measured by the breaths you take; but by the moments that take your breath away - unknown Next page