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	TSR : Web boards : M/s D/s O&P : "Lost unowned slave" 1 2 Lost unowned slave (16) This post is on the M/s D/s O&P web board (moved from Internal Enslavement). Fri 3 Sep 10, 5:30 PM dragonflyfairy US(IA), 2 yrs I was recently released from my Owner. The One whom I gave everything too. I always did my best to keep him happy. It was never enough and he grew tired of me. I hope to find an Owner that will use me to my full potential. Where do I look? 4 Sep 10, 1:12 AM dragonflyfairy US(IA), 2 yrs dragonflyfairy wrote: Lost unowned slave I was recently released from my Owner. The One whom I gave everything too. I always did my best to keep him happy. It was never enough and he grew tired of me. I hope to find an Owner that will use me to my full potential. Where do I look? I thought I should clarify what my full potential is as a slave and why I was released. Sexual slave - worshiped his cock for hours upon hours Domestic slave - maintained home to the standards that he kept. Daily routine and disciplined if not up to par. Pain slave - beaten and tortured to his liking with no limits. As a slave there are some things I wish to experience that I have not yet. More bondage, more confinement, more strict micromanagement, more love and sexual interaction and orgasm control. Those are only a few things that stick out in my mind. I was released because I refused to give up money that would have been more my house payment which keeps my roof over my 'families' head instead of paying his internet bill. There were other issues in the relationship because it turned out that he has narcisstic personality disorder and was very neglectful toward me and caused mental/emotional harm in which was one of the conditions of Ownership. I could not serve at my best at the end because all the neglect had caused trust issues which shook the foundation. He no longer wanted to put in the effort toward ownership and it fell to pieces. I seek to serve One with all my being. When things were right between us there was not one thing that I wouldn't jump to do for him when asked. I want to feel that again. Total Power Exchange. 4 Sep 10, 2:56 AM Sprite US(OH), 2 yrs This girl just wanted to say she is so sorry about the condition in which you were left. It sounds to this girl as though you will be much better off in the long run and am sure you will find someone who will care about you as a slave and treat you much better than you have been. this girl hopes you find someone who will be able to repair the damage that was done and allow you to fully serve and trust again. have you tried on: collarme.com or informedconsent.co.uk/ now collarme you should be careful on as there are a lot of scammers but that is where this girl met her Master that she now lives with. if you ever need to chat or just vent this girl will always be here to listen. -hugs- -Master's pet Always- 4 Sep 10, 4:45 AM dragonflyfairy US(IA), 2 yrs Sprite wrote: This girl just wanted to say she is so sorry about the condition in which you were left. It sounds to this girl as though you will be much better off in the long run and am sure you will find someone who will care about you as a slave and treat you much better than you have been. this girl hopes you find someone who will be able to repair the damage that was done and allow you to fully serve and trust again. have you tried on: collarme.com or informedconsent.co.uk/ now collarme you should be careful on as there are a lot of scammers but that is where this girl met her Master that she now lives with. if you ever need to chat or just vent this girl will always be here to listen. -hugs- Thank you for your kind words. I have tried collarme, and I met my former Owner on Alt.com. I struggle with Dom's wanting immediate submission to all their whims and this didn't used to be a problem but now my foundation requires communication a lot first. At times I feel as if that is expecting to much. Other times I feel i do not want to settle again and get hurt this badly again. Such a toss up. dragonfly 4 Sep 10, 10:05 AM charlotte AU, 2 yrs you have to follow your dreams and do what is right for you, im sure you will find the right Master, just look at it as life experience, something to be learned of,good luck 4 Sep 10, 3:15 PM 112-104-945 UK, 22 mths awww not good news. hope you find an owner who will be more longterm anyway only good things can happen from now on look on the bright side? youv met me now lol xxxx 4 Sep 10, 5:20 PM Lord_Uther UK, 6 yrs dragonflyfairy wrote: I was released because I refused to give up money that would have been more my house payment which keeps my roof over my 'families' head instead of paying his internet bill. There were other issues in the relationship because it turned out that he has narcisstic personality disorder and was very neglectful toward me and caused mental/emotional harm in which was one of the conditions of Ownership. I could not serve at my best at the end because all the neglect had caused trust issues which shook the foundation. He no longer wanted to put in the effort toward ownership and it fell to pieces. I seek to serve One with all my being. When things were right between us there was not one thing that I wouldn't jump to do for him when asked. I want to feel that again. Total Power Exchange. No-one could serve anyone at their best under those conditions, you were being abused. Please do not feel that just because you are a slave that you must accept any treatment that is thrown at you. You have the right to be well treated and cared for. I'm sorry that your experience was so bad, but do not blame yourself. You did nothing wrong, you did not fail, he did. There are many experienced slaves on here that can help you in your recovery and many experienced Masters that you can learn from what a real Master is about. I wish you well and you have found a safe place to be you. My name is Lord Uther, king of kings: Look on my works, ye Mighty, and despair! Edited 4 Sep 10, 5:21 PM by Lord_Uther 5 Sep 10, 2:56 PM dragonflyfairy US(IA), 2 yrs Lord_Uther wrote: dragonflyfairy wrote: I was released because I refused to give up money that would have been more my house payment which keeps my roof over my 'families' head instead of paying his internet bill. There were other issues in the relationship because it turned out that he has narcisstic personality disorder and was very neglectful toward me and caused mental/emotional harm in which was one of the conditions of Ownership. I could not serve at my best at the end because all the neglect had caused trust issues which shook the foundation. He no longer wanted to put in the effort toward ownership and it fell to pieces. I seek to serve One with all my being. When things were right between us there was not one thing that I wouldn't jump to do for him when asked. I want to feel that again. Total Power Exchange. No-one could serve anyone at their best under those conditions, you were being abused. Please do not feel that just because you are a slave that you must accept any treatment that is thrown at you. You have the right to be well treated and cared for. I'm sorry that your experience was so bad, but do not blame yourself. You did nothing wrong, you did not fail, he did. There are many experienced slaves on here that can help you in your recovery and many experienced Masters that you can learn from what a real Master is about. I wish you well and you have found a safe place to be you. Thank you for your words. Yes it was abuse what I went through. It will take time to heal and then the right touch, communication and understanding to really get back into the place I so long to be. 5 Sep 10, 3:06 PM Lord_Uther UK, 6 yrs dragonflyfairy wrote: Thank you for your words. Yes it was abuse what I went through. It will take time to heal and then the right touch, communication and understanding to really get back into the place I so long to be. My advice for you at the moment would be to take some time out and heal yourself. Find out who you are again. Your internal equilibrium must be shot to pieces at the moment, take some time to centre yourself. Wishing you the best. x My name is Lord Uther, king of kings: Look on my works, ye Mighty, and despair! 5 Sep 10, 3:54 PM chrystal_HMLK US(IL), 5 yrs dragonflyfairy wrote: dragonflyfairy wrote: Lost unowned slave I was recently released from my Owner. The One whom I gave everything too. I always did my best to keep him happy. It was never enough and he grew tired of me. I hope to find an Owner that will use me to my full potential. Where do I look? I thought I should clarify what my full potential is as a slave and why I was released. Sexual slave - worshiped his cock for hours upon hours Domestic slave - maintained home to the standards that he kept. Daily routine and disciplined if not up to par. Pain slave - beaten and tortured to his liking with no limits. As a slave there are some things I wish to experience that I have not yet. More bondage, more confinement, more strict micromanagement, more love and sexual interaction and orgasm control. Those are only a few things that stick out in my mind. I was released because I refused to give up money that would have been more my house payment which keeps my roof over my 'families' head instead of paying his internet bill. There were other issues in the relationship because it turned out that he has narcisstic personality disorder and was very neglectful toward me and caused mental/emotional harm in which was one of the conditions of Ownership. I could not serve at my best at the end because all the neglect had caused trust issues which shook the foundation. He no longer wanted to put in the effort toward ownership and it fell to pieces. I seek to serve One with all my being. When things were right between us there was not one thing that I wouldn't jump to do for him when asked. I want to feel that again. Total Power Exchange. I am sorry to hear how you were treated. I was in a similar situation, though not to that extent, so can relate. Right now, it might be best to just try and heal yourself. I would consider counseling as well, though preferably with a kink friendly psychologist or psychiatrist. Don't beat yourself up over it as you did nothing wrong. You did what you could, which is all anyone can do under those circumstances. If you need anyone to talk to, I do listen well and can be contacted here or on yahoo, which is listed on my profile for now. I wish you well. kallisto 6 Sep 10, 3:05 AM dragonflyfairy US(IA), 2 yrs quote=kallisto] dragonflyfairy wrote: dragonflyfairy wrote: Lost unowned slave I was recently released from my Owner. The One whom I gave everything too. I always did my best to keep him happy. It was never enough and he grew tired of me. I hope to find an Owner that will use me to my full potential. Where do I look? I thought I should clarify what my full potential is as a slave and why I was released. Sexual slave - worshiped his cock for hours upon hours Domestic slave - maintained home to the standards that he kept. Daily routine and disciplined if not up to par. Pain slave - beaten and tortured to his liking with no limits. As a slave there are some things I wish to experience that I have not yet. More bondage, more confinement, more strict micromanagement, more love and sexual interaction and orgasm control. Those are only a few things that stick out in my mind. I was released because I refused to give up money that would have been more my house payment which keeps my roof over my 'families' head instead of paying his internet bill. There were other issues in the relationship because it turned out that he has narcisstic personality disorder and was very neglectful toward me and caused mental/emotional harm in which was one of the conditions of Ownership. I could not serve at my best at the end because all the neglect had caused trust issues which shook the foundation. He no longer wanted to put in the effort toward ownership and it fell to pieces. I seek to serve One with all my being. When things were right between us there was not one thing that I wouldn't jump to do for him when asked. I want to feel that again. Total Power Exchange. I am sorry to hear how you were treated. I was in a similar situation, though not to that extent, so can relate. Right now, it might be best to just try and heal yourself. I would consider counseling as well, though preferably with a kink friendly psychologist or psychiatrist. Don't beat yourself up over it as you did nothing wrong. You did what you could, which is all anyone can do under those circumstances. If you need anyone to talk to, I do listen well and can be contacted here or on yahoo, which is listed on my profile for now. I wish you well. kallisto [/quote] Thank you for your kind response. There are no kink friendly counselors here but do go to a therapist who noticed my decline and helped me see what was happening. Hindsight is always 20/20 but definately not jumping into things with anyone for a long while but friends are good to have! Next page