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	TSR : Web boards : M/s D/s O&P : "free again" 1 2 free again (15) This post is on the M/s D/s O&P web board (moved from Internal Enslavement). Mon 5 Apr 10, 10:27 PM 459-608-748 US, 2 yrs my Owner decided to abandon me to be with his girlfriend in seattle and i am in rochester ny. he was supposed to leave her, but changed his mind and left me. it was long distance over cam and text and IMs. never met him. it was 2 years long. i am released now. this time, more cautious. need to cover up his tattoo of ownership ..... it is still there... he does not want to pay to cover it up even though he commanded me to get it and is the one breaking the relationship. such is life. 6 Apr 10, 6:12 AM naughtyslave US, 2 yrs Sorry for your loss. i have a tat that i wish i didnt have now but i figure it is part of my history. is it something you cant live with or look at as part of your history? they are kind of a road map of art to who we are...just curious, naughty 6 Apr 10, 6:19 AM masterfiremaam US(WV), 5 yrs We have often thought to suggest to people to have these kinda of tats altered rather than covered up. Turn it into something else more positive rather than trying to pretend you never had it is, in Our opinion, a much healthier metaphor for life. Master Fire **The power of who we are can be intoxicating.** **The power of who we could be is humbling.** **Yet, we are assured we are exactly as we should be.** 6 Apr 10, 8:04 AM 562-470-768 2 yrs /me smiles that tattoo is beautiful, and perhaps you could consider that it is not a symbol of HIS ownership over you, BUT YOU being a sub/slave (internally if nothing else at this point). perhaps too, you could add your slave number to it, or your innitials, make it YOURS, OWN IT and present it proudly as a part of your heart, soul and body to your next owner - not as a reminder of your previous one! think of it as an inspirational gift that you were left with - it represents YOU. YOUR acceptance of who you are within the dynamics of this lifstyle. YOUR honor of your own choices. YOUR love for yourself. it is lovely, it is really something so visually perfect that this girl is rather envious of! this girl is sorry for your loss, and she imagines that you are flitting between anger and grief. that you perhaps want it gone because of your hurt..but if you LOOK at that picture, if you LOOK at those symbols.. heart with keyhole - nobody gives you a heart. you have had it since the day you were born. it will always be locked within your being, and what keeps you functioning. the chain - that keeps you connected to life and lifestyle. an everlasting thread that holds your heart captive not only within your body, but also within your whole being of servitude. for all eternaty. sometimes, it is not WHAT we look at, but HOW we look at it. she wish you the best, and if you ever need help in restructuring, a different view and a caring hand... Master offered to assist while this girl offers to comfort. We are all vanilla to some degree - for society will keep a foothold in our lives. We are all Dom/mes or slave/sub on some level, as there is ALWAYS someone weaker or stronger than you... 6 Apr 10, 11:54 AM taylor_209_847_694 3 yrs your tattoo is beautiful! maybe when the hurt and anger and grief begins to lessen, you can see the tattoo more in the line of who you are and not so much as His mark. i am slowly learning that the only one that holds the key to my heart is me, and i hope you can find that inside of you too. good luck and best wishes. 7 Apr 10, 2:11 AM FeistyPuppy US(CA), 3 yrs I'm really sorry to hear that, it is painful at first. As for taking your time, yes, do so. Take time to heal, and wait until the hurt and anger stops clouding your mind. First, and I truly am curious, how come you two never met? I want you to know I'm not being condescending because I have done the same thing, with no effort to meet. Secondly, I think it may have been unwise (imo ONLY) to tat yourself without meeting him once or several times...I don't mean to start a flame war, merely stating my thoughts on this. On a positive note, I think the tat is gorgeous, and agree with 768 on changing what it means to you. Good luck. 9 Apr 10, 8:17 PM mutable 2 yrs Hello. The facts are; you spent 2 years being his slave, got his tatoo, he fucked off. So, what can you do with this situation..? 1) Learn your lessons. What makes you tick, what you are looking for and what you will and will not accept. The tatoo is a reminder of this, good AND bad. 2) Take a few months time out to vent, grieve and get your house in order. Use it as 'me' time. Think, process and be self assured. 3) After nos. 1 and 2, evaluate what is most important to you and then seek it. If you're not a slave, that's ok - the most important thing is not to kid yourself. If you are a slave, then know what you need and don't be afraid of seeking it again. 4) Be positive, be safe and be happy. So says me - who hopes to always give good and kind advice, but who struggles to follow it herself. I know it's never easy :/ Caveat : Non offensive and always learning. 'We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are' Anais Nin 10 Apr 10, 1:01 AM dragonslave US(IN), 2 yrs You've gotten a lot of good advice here, all from different points of view. Sure, as long it's there, it's in some way going to be a reminder, but as one comment said, change it, make yours. There is always a price to pay, sort of a balance to our lives. This would be your way to tip it in your favor. 16 Apr 10, 8:08 PM SIRDacks US(PA), 2 yrs Y! I see nothing wrong with that tat. It does not dislay a name or intent. One slave that I helped out when she was between Masters had a huge tat which definetly stated what she was and to who. It did not bother her but I am sure it might to her new owner. We must be realistic here especially when it comes to those lovely creatures that want themselves to be slaves or are slaves. The probabilty of ownership transfer must always be a possibility and always have your head wrapped around that possibility of being transfered or given away to another. Why I always teach to ones that they should be a slave to themselves first before they can be a slave to another. When one has that inner peace of who and what she is, it is a lot easier when such things happens to her. I feel a better signature of ownership is a collar or in my case her left nipple is pierced and a lovely puppy tag with her name and her owners name on it is attached to a chain that hangs from the nipple ring. It is so lovely to see when she is crawling and it sways. I do wish you well and hope your search is hort in finding another owner. 17 Apr 10, 4:10 AM slaveofMark US(TN), 4 yrs The hurt and confusion will abide with time. The tattoo is beautiful and in time, that too will be a clear decision, cover it, remove it, or love it. This is your life even if we are slaves, we must first know ourselves in order to be able to turn ourselves over. Take time now to focus on these boards, vanilla friends and heal. Good luck and much kindness from a slave who has been struggling too. ~ ssb1014 20 Aug 10, 10:48 PM 491-315-154 US(CA), 2 yrs I was just reading this post. I do hope that you have time to reflect and do not judge the whole life by one person. There is always a Master out there. Next page