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	TSR : Web boards : Internal Enslavement : "slaves desiring IE more than Masters/Mistresses" slaves desiring IE more than Masters/Mistresses (7) This post is on the Internal Enslavement web board. Fri 8 Jan 10, 9:43 AM nequam AU, 6 yrs How common is it for the slave to desire IE more than the Master/Mistress? i know He is Master and it's about what He wants, but i feel a need to be taken deeper into slavery. i want to go through this process as i feel my mind is still too independent. Currently, i'm still in the wanting to do it to please phase, when i really want to be in the doing it because that's how it's done phase. i am not seeking ways to top from the bottom or someone control Master and finding someone else who might want to go this path isn't an option. i would just like some suggestions from people who've already been here on what i can do to keep from feeling frustrated? Thanks in advance owned property of Sir Trisk 8 Jan 10, 2:12 PM Mona_Demarkov HR, 2 yrs Hehehehe, you and my sub should chat about this...My thread might indicate that the Masters/Mistresses simply don't know HOW to get you there and then we post on these sort of forums hoping for insight... 8 Jan 10, 5:20 PM De_Luxe UK, 4 yrs Have you ever lived somewhere where the switch for the light for the stairs is on the right hand side wall, then you move house and the light-switch is on the left hand wall. How long does it take before you don't have to search for the light-switch on the 'wrong' wall? In other words it takes time and many repetitions to go from thinking before acting in a "I'm doing this his way" way to a second nature "this is how it is done" way. 8 Jan 10, 6:18 PM Ettiennes_slut US(OR), 2 yrs De_Luxe wrote: Have you ever lived somewhere where the switch for the light for the stairs is on the right hand side wall, then you move house and the light-switch is on the left hand wall. How long does it take before you don't have to search for the light-switch on the 'wrong' wall? In other words it takes time and many repetitions to go from thinking before acting in a "I'm doing this his way" way to a second nature "this is how it is done" way. i like your analogy. You made it easy to understand why it might take some time to adjust. Thanks. Ettiennes_slut 8 Jan 10, 7:30 PM 898-443-818 US, 5 yrs i just wanted to add, i am learning that time is an important element to this. With the passing of time, even in the absence of necessarily new rules or rituals, the mind becomes more about your Master. Sometimes something will take me out of the present and i will realize how far i've come, or i will say something to a vanilla person-you know, things will for a moment make me realize how irreversible this is becoming. Ugh, i'm sorry. Hard to put into words. 898-443-818 8 Jan 10, 8:40 PM 333-528-841 CA, 3 yrs Have you had a conversation with your Master about this? That is really where you should be turning for answers. You both should be in agreement with all the wants, needs and limits necessary and expectations for the relationship. Has he said that he does not want to progress to IE? If not, how do you know that you want it more? IE is not an overnight process. It is not accomplished in days. It is a long process that happens over time. Have you thought of the possibility that what you are feeling or your emotions and experiences right now may be a part of that process? You never know. If your Master has come right out and said it will never happen, then you have choices. Accept it or move on. 333-528-841 Life shouldn't be measured by the breaths you take; but by the moments that take your breath away 8 Jan 10, 8:41 PM nequam AU, 6 yrs Thank you everyone for your replies. Impatience has always been a bit of an issue with me, Master has worked at changing that and it's working, just *sigh*, you know. De_Luxe, thank You for Your analogy, that helps a lot. Master has recently taken on a new girl to train who is totally new to this world. It has shown me how far i've come. Yes, the little reminders are important. owned property of Sir Trisk Being your slave what should I do but tend Upon the hours, and times of your desire? Sonnet 57 - William Shakespeare 25 Feb 10, 6:27 PM curious_bina US(TN), 2 yrs slavemichelle wrote: slaves desiring IE more than Masters/Mistresses How common is it for the slave to desire IE more than the Master/Mistress? i know He is Master and it's about what He wants, but i feel a need to be taken deeper into slavery. i want to go through this process as i feel my mind is still too independent. Currently, i'm still in the wanting to do it to please phase, when i really want to be in the doing it because that's how it's done phase. i am not seeking ways to top from the bottom or someone control Master and finding someone else who might want to go this path isn't an option. i would just like some suggestions from people who've already been here on what i can do to keep from feeling frustrated? Thanks in advance This slave gets tired of the phrase "topping from the bottom." Lol. In no way are you topping from the bottom if you feel your Dominant doesn't have enough control over you (or chooses not to exercise it). You might just need a stronger Master/Mistress. One who directs you more, and exercises their control more often. Are you sure your Master/Mistress is right for you? Really, going deeper into I.E. is about the trust, the control and direction/guidance, the rules, and the dependency. That's what you need. Maybe your Master/Mistress is fine, just not the one for you. Maybe you just need more. (TPE?) -s Always the curious one ~ s