Sir_A_Griff wrote:
tsina, you are still hearing the notes of your past relationship and your heart strings are being plucked. Any future D/s relationship will be coloured by this last one, you'll compare your old and new Masters. GOOD LUCK MG
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I am not really sure what this contribution was supposed to add.
Yes, I have felt pulled towards my former owner. And yes, unless and until I have completely gotten over it, any future service would be influenced. This is why I am attempting to clean it all up before moving on.
Recently, my former owner has inflicted a hurt I know that I will not be able to recover from. So it seems the answer to my question about feeling IE from a person no longer in my life was answered.
Trust is imperative to me in an M/s relationship. That trust has now been completely shattered. It would be unsafe for me to put myself in harm's way again.
I actually felt the IE that was inspired in me through him simply dissolve. It melted like sugar in the rain.
A few moments eroded nearly 3 years of dedication and desire to serve.
There is no longer an unwanted IE to deal with, just a broken hearted former slave.
I will deal with this now as any woman who has lost a relationship would.
As I watch the sun come up this morning, I am truly free and when he realises the treasure that he has lost in me, it is he who will be bound always in the torment of a slave lost.
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