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	TSR : Web boards : M/s D/s O&P : "Novice life as a slave" Novice life as a slave (3) This post is on the M/s D/s O&P web board. Sun 17 May 09, 3:50 PM 142-884-107 3 yrs Their was this underlying desire to serve a Master. I finally met someone, he hurt me emotionally last year, never experienced anything like it. The rejection, no reason. Was my first experience, I was MIND screwed, never saw the pain coming. He took me out of my repressed desires, I was hooked. Never wanting much of a life as a slave after that. I met this incredible Master. Anyone help me with moving on with him. We never met, he lives Iowa. I live NJ, talk daily. I would consider relocating. Any advice would help please. I'm confused of why I'm so ready to serve him. He knows of my past from last year. Any advice would be great appreciated Bulpup 17 May 09, 4:24 PM 483-608-929 US(OH), 4 yrs Take your time. Don't rush relocating and jumping in. If He is willing to work with you, get to know you, meet you more than once, really devote time and effort into it all, then seriousness is shown on His part. There are people out there who genuinely want to meet someone and develop a serious M/s relationship. It's great you've met someone who has gotten you interested in it again. i know of someone who rushed in, moved to NY, and, then, with "tail between legs" moved back months later because it didn't work out. Relocation is a big big step. You will want to really get to know this guy, be honest, talk about everything (past, present and future), and i mean future. Make sure Y/you are both on the same page. Edited: i think you are so willing to serve Him because He offers what you want inside and He seems a viable way to get it. It's what we all seek and hope for. Written by it with its Owner's permission. Thank you SIR. Ultimately we know deeply that the other side of every fear is a freedom. Marilyn Ferguson Duct tape is like the force, it has a light side and a dark side and it holds the universe together Edited 17 May 09, 11:57 PM by 483-608-929 17 May 09, 9:38 PM Kay_kay US(NY), 3 yrs As you have already been advised, it's definitely best to take things slowly. One thing that D/s relationships share with any and all other relationships is that it's best to take it slow and to be careful of anyone who tries to push things too far too fast. This is especially true, though, of D/s because, as a submissive, part of you yearns to give everything and, if the Master is not a true or good Master, that can damage you badly as you've already seen. As for moving on with Him, you've already started in the fact that He has reawakened in you the desire to serve. Personally, i believe the first thing you need to stop doing is wondering why He reawakened the desire to serve in you. i know, easier said than done but, honestly, you may never understand why this happened. Focus more on the fact that it has happened and, honestly, does the why really matter anyway? you've obviously healed a great deal from previous experiences and He can help you heal the rest of the way. Not to offend people, but it's just like any break up...you don't really trust easily or want anyone for a while after the break up of a relationship. However, you heal and you realize that not everyone is like your ex and you open up your heart again to the possibilities. i honestly think that's what has happened here. Use your past not to make the same mistakes again but leave your past where it belongs. When your past does reassert itself, recognize that this Master is not the previous Master, He's not going to be the same and then TELL this Master what's going on in your head and trust Him to help you fix it. If He's the amazing Master you believe He is, He will help you. However, He can't help or fix what He doesn't know is going on. Remember, you can't fix something if you don't know it's broken, if you'll forgive the terminology there. Hopefully, some of this long rambling post is of use to you and good luck with your new service 26 May 09, 1:25 AM 142-884-107 3 yrs Thank you for your advice. Your post hit home;although the ex-master had a solid control over my mind. Much as I talk about it with a friend, she will never understand the need to serve my master. Not that I need validation, it would become easier if I could talk openly with other friends. Thank you again for advice slavebulpup