14 Sep 09, 12:34 AM
650-736-585
GR, 2 yrs
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Greetings to all,
In my case, my childhood life has made me to fear gifts. Usually they were tricks for bad things to show up. So, today, at my 30s, a gift, even from my father gives me butterflies in my stomach.
For me, a gift from anyone, even a Master, is like punishment. I always feel that I DO NOT deserve any gifts. The give me horrible feelings of guilt; unbearable which may lead me not to sleep for days.
I dunno if that weird thing of me is serious enough to drive me at Mr. Froid's couch, but that's who I am.
Of course, if Master's will is to give something to me, than like a good slave I better show some appreciation.
(God! I feel like a terrible slave; not worthy ever finding a Master)  • I humbly ask for your tolerance and forgiveness to my ignorance.
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