| re: Leesie's post - i don't know if you are Owner/Dom or slave/sub; however, i have to say AMEN to the part about always being a victim taking a lot of energy
Been there, done that - how true!
i hope this young lady - and to me she is - learns that.
What i learned about it is this: When i'm a victim, i have no control; however, when i'm a survivor of abuse at worse and responsible for my own life TODAY - not as an actual child obviously - i have SOME measure of choice in what happens to me. As long as i blame E/everyone E/else, i do not.
Just as a note about grammar and spelling, what was said by me and O/others is nothing i have not said to my own adopted daughter whom i adore. But i can't read the girl's writing if you paid me. it's NOT handwriting, it's spelling and grammar. Certainly mine is not perfect, but she spells everything as she thinks it sounds usually and often as it has never sounded in the English language.
It is my one and only disappointment in the child - now getting into the late twenties - that when i offered to teach her to be somewhat better, she refused And i say this as one who certainly knows i could sometimes stand some correction on that too. Probably W/we all could - even professional authors have editors.
The point is that my daughter went to the same High School i did but between 20 - 25 years later - remember she adopted us as an adult woman choosing better parents because hers, while nice people, frankly rotted at parenting. It's not her or anyone's fault not to know better English, but it is her choice - and the OP's - not to take responsibility for correcting the deficit in the schooling T/they did or did not have the oppurtunity to receive. Bluntly, i am ashamed of what my High School is now turning out for graduates.
This may be a mute point as the OP claims she is leaving U/us, but as i've seen others say T/they were leaving and then lurk reading responses, i thought i'd say this so she'd know it's nothing personal - and it's nothing i didn't say to my own "daughter" when she got pregnant and wasn't married, then when she married the jerk who got her pregnant and he decided to become a junkie and, apparently as a result of he drugs, suddenly severely mentally ill, not only being suicidal but once threatening to commit suicide by vehical with his baby girl in the van.
And yes i know i need help myself as queen of rambling and the run-on sentence.
But i sent her off to Oregon with her "real" mother when he got the right to unsupervised visits in the divorce as i knew that no junkie would save money to visit the kids when he could use it for drugs. So unless he made some real changes in his life her kids, who call me grandma, wouldn't see him. my background as recovering alkie and addict of 21 1/2 years as well as having worked in the field of substance abuse counseling meant i could almost guarentee it.
i am proud to say that when it comes to her kids, said daughter HAS stepped up to the plate to the best of her ability. She did move to the other coast and she has met a guy who tries to help her with the kids and be a real Man - would make a darn good Dom if He leaned that way (i don't know and it's none of my business) but is definitely an alpah male.
and if, by chance, the OP does read this, let me say i am sorry for your loss and a miscarriage IS a real loss, with real grieving.
But one thing i have learned being in the stage of life that i am an old lady of almost 53 and a granny now for real,
situations in my life that are not life-threatening, whether i choose them or not, can often be made into stumbling blocks or stepping stones - my choice, mostly.
Like the fact that even though my Master died i have this odd habit of waking up every day - and i can make the best of it or feel sorry for myself.
i might add that some of the things i see posted on here, i often wonder what the OTHER side of the story is and sometimes they seem to be either exagerated or maybe even untrue Perhaps i am wrong. Perhaps i am old and don't see how the world is today. But to be honest, sometimes i do wonder what the OTHER side of the story is - often the OWNER'S side, i've noticed too, although not always. i suspect some Owner's don't feel they can dignify some statements with a reply. This does not necessarily refer to the OP mainly either.
just some thoughts as usual - i've often said my late Master wondered not just about gags, but about finger-gags to get me to stop babbling on and on and on as in the whore of babbling on. (GRIN!) Do take what you like and shelve the rest j/L Papa's owned always: still proudly wearing His Collar and Ring, rest in peace Beloved Master/Husband! "Freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose" Janis Joplin
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