907-607-606 wrote:
Hello there everybody just need to ask how do i stop messing up when talking to my Master?
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Have a Master that you respect and trust; usually because they communicate with you well.
907-607-606 wrote:
I am very jealous of him which perhaps is not necessarily a good thing in a submissive
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Jealous: "Fearful or wary of being supplanted; apprehensive of losing affection or position".
It's a destructive thing in anyone; a vicious circle: the more jealous you are, the less desirable you are. These relationships are particularly dependent on trust.
907-607-606 wrote:
He has lost rust in me because he says that i lie to him. Has any other sub/slave lied to their Masters?
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Have you?
Trust is like glass (my mirror analogy again: you and your Master are each others reflection) you only get to break it once.
907-607-606 wrote:
When i chat to him I always mess up because i start to get vitrionic about the fact that he has 'thrown me away' but then it would seem that he has not.
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It sounds like he is not giving you clear signals about his feelings or intentions - and you need them.
907-607-606 wrote:
I have accused him of being with another sub/slave
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Is this outside of the limits you've both agreed on?
Statistics would imply that monogamy is something you can't force people to do.
The best way to keep someone with you is by helping them enjoy being with you; especially at parting moments.
907-607-606 wrote:
he says he has not but now he is going to because he deserves better than me.
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Perhaps if he communicated more with you, helped you to trust him, and was able to belay your outbursts, things would have been different too.
907-607-606 wrote:
I think he might well the way I feel about me at the moment.
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There are always an infinite number of "what if"s and both parties here sound like they're simply not well matched.
907-607-606 wrote:
Any suggestions because i do want to be his again
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How many potential Masters have you known? "Being his" could be a fixation rather than a future. Would being someone else's lower your self-esteem?
From these few words, the impression is that neither of you are able to cope the other! That isn't a healthy place to start. I would hope that you find someone who makes you melt when you approach them; who could calm you with a look; who you'd go you the ends of the earth with no matter what their behaviour. But in this case, just find someone else, for a break!
I hope things all turn out in the end, for both of you.
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