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	TSR : Web boards : Internal Enslavement : "Being fully open in Enslavement" 1 2 3 4 5 Being fully open in Enslavement (50) This post is on the Internal Enslavement web board. 11 Jan 09, 11:45 PM Rolling_Wildheart 6 yrs masterfiremaam wrote: Did anyone else think "oompaloompa"? *chuckle* Guilty! Wildheart Your suffering will be legendary, even in Hell - Pinhead from Hellraiser II 12 Jan 09, 1:51 AM 119-812-164 US, 3 yrs i am full of smiles, bursting witht them at how familiar and foreign and magical and inane, all at the same time, this moment you share seems to be ... and how very much lovely and human and apt. cheers, girl (sister of the racing mind ... ) The happiness of a man in this life does not consist in the absence but in the mastery of his passions.-- Alfred Lord Tennyson To live a creative life we must lose our fear of being wrong. --Joseph Chilton Pearce 11 Apr 09, 4:29 AM SIRSraven US(GA), 3 yrs phantasm, i am wishing you the greatest of sucess with that book. This thread has been wonderful. Happy to hear there are more children living in the adult community than just me (and i was worried that my ADD set me apart). Sir is laughing at me as i type, He found this quite as humorous as me. 12 Apr 09, 11:16 PM MasterMezs_Rosie UK, 3 yrs I feel exactly the same. I'm so childlike or "cute" as my Master would say. All he has to do is show my something shiny and I'm content for the next hour, or buy me a cookie lol...like any child I'm more than slightly obssessed with cookies which has earned me the new name of Cookie (possibly with either the suffix of -Bear or -Monster depending on Masters mood). Also I occasionally have tantrums or sulk, for which I'm ignored and denied things, but sometimes it's the having been denied that sets off my tantrum. On the topic of not always being able to open, sometimes I think of something that I want to ask, will start to ask but cut myself off mid sentence and then my Master has to spend the next hour trying to coax it out of me...and I never make it easy for him although recently he has started to use sneaky Jedi mind tricks on me, or so I call it anyway. Cookie P.S. The "daffodils" situation has occurred many times, generally whilst in the presence of shoes/cookies/shinys and anything else that catches my eye ^_^ With enough lube and physical effort- anything is possible ^_~ 12 Jul 09, 12:32 PM Cor_Cordis 2 yrs ROFLBATTLECOPTER. Roof tiles. French maid. Penetration with a battery-operated pineapple? I, being in my late teens, have been exposed to the sayings and quotes that our generation base every relationship on. One of the more prominent ones emphasizes the importance of being able to "be yourself" with a boyfriend, a friend, or even a crush. So for me, this isn't a big deal. I tell Master what I'm thinking of all the time, and I don't think anything of it because I've never hidden anything about myself to the people that matter. I don't think I deserve this selflessness. Find your way into my heart. Edited 12 Jul 09, 12:33 PM by Cor_Cordis 12 Jul 09, 3:14 PM slave_of_The_Tesh US(FL), 2 yrs I had to laugh at some of these. I can totally relate. I, too, have moments like Krista's daffodils - CONSTANTLY. Master thinks it's cute. He also has similar moments of absolute child-like behavior, which are just adorable. Owned by The_Tesh This post has probably been edited for spelling/grammar because I'm weird like that. 21 Aug 09, 11:59 AM 857-875-414 2 yrs I have to say I am so relieved to have come across this thread. Until meeting my Master.<<I love the sound of that>>>. I never felt the inner child, of me appear, now I do and I do feel silly at times about how I am and what I waffle on about. Master brings this out of me. I can't help it even though I try and refrain from 'the inner child' appearing. It is really refreshing and enlightening when I notice him musing over this inner child of me NB We are very open in our communications and talk about anything and everything 25 Aug 09, 1:24 PM De_Luxe UK, 4 yrs What a nice thread! Mea culpa, I have been heard to say "oooh shiny" and "look, red kite/ bunny/ rainbow/ foal sunbathing" and the best bit is my boy doesn't think it crazy or undomly. These are things we both enjoy seeing. We share a love and wonder of life. It is good when your sub/slave can relax and say what he or she is thinking without fear and it goes without saying it is valuable to know your sub/slave so intimately. Sometimes it is just immensely funny which is an unexpected bonus. Laughter is good for you. 26 Aug 09, 6:02 PM slave_of_The_Tesh US(FL), 2 yrs I have to wonder if being "fully open" can extend even into divulging things when not asked. For example, I keep a private online journal to help myself identify, label, and deal with emotions and tough situations. Most of the time I don't share these musings with ANYone, because they're intensely private and I don't really want input from others. I just want to sort out what I think and feel about a particular thing. Just last night I worked on one that took me almost two hours to write and involved a lot of energy and tears because of how intense and frightening the problem was to me. I always send these journals to Master. I'm not necessarily seeking His input or advice on whatever issue is there, but He likes to know what I'm thinking and feeling. I know that about Him, so I send them to Him even if He doesn't know I've written something. Usually I tell Him that I'll be writing so He knows to expect it. Sometimes, though, I have to write before I've had a chance to talk to Him - like if He's at work and can't talk, or at three in the morning when something wakes me up and He's sleeping. Many times after reading these journals He does have something to say. Last night's entry dealt with my severe insecurity about things, and Master could have taken many of the things I wrote as a signal that I wanted to stop the M/s aspect of our relationship, even though I don't. I was concerned after I sent Him the link that He may want to scale it back or drop it altogether because of some passages in that entry. This morning He called me on his lunch break and told me that it obviously took a lot of courage to not only write the things I wrote, but also to share it with Him, and that He was proud of me for being able to do so. He also gently reminded me that He wouldn't push me until He knew I was ready, and that my submission was not a blind, one-sided deal. When I agreed to give up my personal power to Him, He agreed to take care of me in every way, and sometimes my brain forgets that because it wants to drift into that place where I feel like I'm not good enough. His Beloved Owned and loved by The_Tesh This post has probably been edited for spelling/grammar because I'm weird like that. 25 Feb 10, 6:33 PM curious_bina US(TN), 2 yrs phantasm wrote: Being fully open in Enslavement I don't know if anyone else may find themselves in this situation. My owner, as owners do, is still learning about me, and now has started onto a process of knowing what I am thinking about at any given time. Of course, the mind being highly complex, this would normally be a long period of discovery and learning. Not necessarily in my case. After giving service in bed, as I asked if he would like to have his morning blow job, and proceeded to climb under the duvet to make a tee pee tent and commence my duty (the tee pee was my idea), on finishing and laying beside him, he then asked what I was thinking about. "The little people" I said "The little people" he remarked, "You were thinking of little people" I said, "I was thinking of the little people inside all the organs working hard to keep them going." "OK, little people, and what are they doing exactly?" he asked quite intrigued. "Making things work" I replied. Sir giggled and asked, "So how many are there?" "About 10 per organ" I answered. "And what do they look like, sasha?" "Tetley tea people" I informed him. "And working really hard too" There was silence for a while, and ten minutes later, still lying in bed, he asked me again "What are you thinking about now, then?" "Roof tiles" I replied. LOL. Sounds like things this slave would say . . . So it kind of went on like that, and so my owner has now learned that I totally think of complete and utter rubbish at any given time or moment. Later in the evening, now separated until my next visit, as we had to part company earlier than planned, I realised something and began to suffer a severe panic attack. On reflecting over my time with him I suddenly thought, Oh My God! He thinks I think I have little people living inside of me. I did try to correct this little insight, I'm still not sure he believes me, but he knows I would never lie to him. The thing is, I always wanted to have Sir perceive me as an intellectual woman, someone of the mind who holds a position of care within a professional career, which he does, and someone of a certain calibre, let's say. Well that idea is completely shot, he is now aware of the real me. Although I think he was always aware of that, but one can never tell, because he's very silent at times. There's absolutely nothing wrong with your "unprofessional" thoughts. You telling your Master what you're really thinking comes with a lot of trust. You can't talk like that to anyone, but with someone you grow really close to, you let go of your need to "keep up an appearance." You just become you. So my point I guess, it's not always the dark side of our nature one may relinquish the truth about, but often enough (I guess) the innocent or lighter side which can enable one's Master to know his slave better. So true! Just something which seemed important to me, nothing more. It is actually exhilarating to think how free one feels when having to be totally open, and not being able to hide even the silly things about ourselves. Being this free, allows me to sink even deeper into feelings of devotion, love, and adoration to my owner. sasha "Freedom though enslaved." True It is good to be able to not care what one's Master thinks and to just tell them things; to talk. To have that one person to understand you, or not understand but care for you anyways -s Always the curious one ~ s